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sunday, sunday sunday!

off to see The Cocker Spaniels tonight @ Elbo’s!!!

want to see a fucking great show? be there!

listen to these songs, then freak out, put on yer dancin’ Doc Martens, and show yer face tonight!

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The Falafel Factor: Blow Up San Francisco, Terrorists!

in case you’ve been hiding under a rock and were unaware of what a pathetic, dickheaded moron Bill “falafel” O’Reilly is, here’s your chance to find out what an evil waste of life that motherfucker is…

my letter:

Dear Valued “Newscasters”,

If Mr. O’Reilly doesn’t get fired from his little bully-pulpit for his literally insane and absolutely treasonous invite for terrorists to bomb San Francisco, then Fox News and Westwood One truly have their heads up their posteriors and could do with a few less advertisers and a few thousand less viewers. Even my friends on the Right are sickened and appalled.

Please, do us all a favor and sack this sorry piece of filth from the airwaves forever.

Yours,

x jeremy jarratt
Dayton, OH


you can send your own to:

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scared to death @ Kettering Memorial Hospital. more to come in a friends-only post.

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i had no idea Gary Busey could do all of these things.

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Resident Evil 4 and Metal Gear Solid 3 both totally rock!

Holly is sick :(

i got my new Roland DM10 digital studio monitors today!! now i can finally mix my music with accurate sound! and i got lots of Ernie Ball Hybrid Slinky and Earthwood strings! and lube! woo hoo!!

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Today Was a Good Day

today:

  • amazing sex (par for the course)
  • Metal Gear Solid 3
  • Resident Evil 4
  • Wallace & Gromit DVD

winner: me

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the old just keep getting older

saw my grandpa today.

it was hard not to cry in front of him. he just looks so much older than i want him to be. he looks like a weak, frail 85 year old. he is a weak, frail 85 year old.

i’m not grounded any more.

i told him i loved him and that he was my best friend, and my favorite person. most of the time he just laid there with his eyes shut or shutting. he was tired, and his poor old sweet eyes teared up and he told me he loved me with this pained, furrowed brow like ‘o god i love you so much’.

it was so hard not to cry in front of him. i miss the young, healthy grandpa who was always tinkering with things, puttering around in the yard or on a ladder or with his power tools.

and i kept thinking, jesus christ, i just went through this in 2001 with my poor sweet old grandma. now i have to sit here and helplessly watch him helplessly die too, just like then.

a whole galaxy of pain, welling up inside of me. why are the young punished with the death and dyingness of the old? it’s such an old game, an old tragedy; marked from the very dawn of time and life with saline and regret.

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and in recent HIV/AIDS news…

Bacteria modified to combat HIV

British man ‘recovered from HIV’

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1) cleaned my friends list. i’m exclusively mutual now.
2) updated my LJ with tags. (even friends can add tags to my posts now.)

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see also…

the Horror of Being a Man

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Cocker Spaniels come to Ohio!!!

Firstly,

people in Ohio must pick a show and see a very, very talented dude play great rock music. (i’ll be at Elbo’s on sunday, the 20th)

he’s from Tejas (formerly NYC) and his band the Cocker Spaniels are playing some very rare Ohio shows.

his music is fucking fantastic. very energetic, emotionally raw, totally original indie rock music. Guided by Voices’ Rob Pollard loves the stuff, and he’s by many accounts The Best Band You’ve Never Heard. someday [not] soon enough he will be Big Shit (we’re talking Pavement/Modest Mouse/Bright Eyes/Death Cab for Cutie territory here), if he keeps making such vital, honest rock and roll.

i can’t say enough about how startlingly good his CD, Withstand the Whatnot, is. you really, really ought to be good to your ears and pick up a copy while you’re there.

you’ll thank him at the show, and then come home, spent and exhausted, and thank me for telling you. BELIEVE ME.

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birthday card from Ral@~ my grandfather

the other day, when i was at the hospital, i picked up the birthday card from my grandfather and stashed it and left without mentioning it.

it’s just that i don’t want to upset him. he forgets things now, and my birthday was not something i wanted him to worry his sweet heart about.

i did look at it, though. i’ve been looking at it, actually.

the only handwriting in it is this:

Ralp your grandfather

…scrawled in barely-legible chicken-scratch.

he never, ever signs cards for me like that. it’s always either “RJ” or, more often, “G-pa“.

this means he didn’t know what he was signing, or for whom. then he [somewhat suddenly] corrected (hence the unfinished “Ralph”), and wrote something different. probably on a cue from my dad, who obviously picked up the card.

i wish, for so many reasons, that my stupid birthday would have just gone away perfectly.

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today i realised that the stomache thing i used to feel when i accidentally thought about Lisa is completely gone. i honestly don’t care at all anymore. not one bit. not even when i think about her +and+ other people.

nothing…

at…

all.

(she does still annoy the piss outta me, but then again, mean girls always do)

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samhain (pron. soe’-in)

went to visit my grandfather in the hospital today. i haven’t seen legs that skinny since Live Aid. his color is good, but he looks and sounds terrible. i have all but lost hope that he’ll ever get much better again.

been playing Castlevania: Lament of Innocence, driving slightly fast (today: vision spinning blurry dizzy), re-reading Sandman, and purposefully leaving car unlocked for short intervals in hopes of finding a victim for my wrath.

i heard i got a birthday present the other day (inside schadenfreude joke), but then it got taken away.

drama re: grandfather’s house alarm set. i am thankful i did not have to deal with Mary today. or anyone else.

“happy” hallowe’en.

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moving

my task is obvious: empty my old apartment betwixt to-night and the morrow, else i shall have two land-lords to pay tribute to.

and they are both ladies. ladies, who are not known for their forgiveness.

if anyone in the area be in need of free furniture, it’ll be located at 325B Lovington Drive, in Fairborn, Ohio.

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Trick or Treating Down to the Sea In Ships

Trick or Treating Down to the Sea In Ships

Richard Brautigan
From Revenge of the Lawn

As a child, I used to play Halloween as if I were a sailor and go trick or treating down to the sea in ships. My sack of candy and things were at the wheel and my Halloween mask was sails cutting through the beautiful autumn night with lights on front porches like ports of call.

Trickortreat was the captain of our ship, saying “We are only going to be in this port for a short time. I want all of you to go ashore and have a good time. Just remember we sail on the morning tide.” My God, he was right! We sailed on the morning tide.

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added some pictures from our big date in the Oregon.

dull birthday, but that’s okay. i had some outrageous sex with my best friend, so it’s all good.

still upset about that motherfucker who called the cops on my grandfather’s health care & landed him and the rest of us in deep shit.

i know who y’are, too, bitch. run. run away. very, very far away.

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voice mail: Little Mary: “anonymous phone call- Sheriff. grandfather at Good Sam hosp.” left work. mapquesting. bye.

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been re-reading Neil Gaiman‘s Sandman series of late.

glad i have a girlfriend who i can kiss and trust. it occurred to me that there was always a thin, invisible wall of mistrust between Lisa and me. no such wall with Hol.

going to see Wallace and Gromit tonight, hopefully.

MUST get rest of stuff moved out of old apartment by end of month!!

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2005 == 1984

thanks to the ever smokin’ mistressxenobia for the alert:

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE

National Coalition for Sexual Freedom

Contact:
Susan Wright, NCSF Spokesperson
(917) 848-6544

Wave of Obscenity Prosecutions Leads to Closure and Self-Censorship of SM Websites

October 20, 2005 – Attorney General Alberto Gonzales has announced that his office will specifically target “bestiality, urination, defecation, as well as sadistic and masochistic behavior” in pursuing new obscenity prosecutions. The Department of Justice began recruiting in late July for a new anti-obscenity squad to pursue obscenity prosecutions, and the FBI announced in September that it was
forming an anti-obscenity task force to crack down on pornography.

Any website that has content containing “bestiality, urination, defecation, as well as sadistic and masochistic behavior” should be forewarned that prosecution is possible. Additionally, Federal sentencing guidelines state that any obscenity-related punishment should be “enhanced for sadomasochistic material.”

Forty people and businesses have been convicted of obscenity since 2001, and 20 additional indictments are pending according to Andrew Oosterbaan, chief of the Justice Department’s child exploitation and obscenity section. There were only four obscenity prosecutions during the eight years of the Clinton administration.

Though adult content is, in theory, protected by the First Amendment, only a jury can determine if a work is obscene or not under the subjective set of standards that vary from one community to the next established in the 1973 Supreme Court ruling, Miller v. California.

Text is not inherently more protected than images when it comes to obscenity charges. The erotic fiction website Red Rose Stories is facing obscenity charges after federal agents raided the owner’s home on October 3rd, taking computer equipment and diskettes that contained all of their files and site information.

The Department of Justice is clearly hoping that websites will self-censor or remove their content entirely. Midori, a fetish model and SM educator who teaches classes on bondage, has removed her website, BeautyBound.com, citing fear of obscenity prosecution. The owner of three SM websites, known as GrandPa DeSade, removed his websites from the Internet. SuicideGirls.com also announced they are self-censoring their materials over concerns about a possible obscenity crackdown.

Recent prosecutions of obscenity on websites include: A former police officer in Lakeland, Florida, was arrested on October 7th on over 300 obscenity-related charges for the sexual content posted on his website. The same day, webmaster Chris Wilson, owner of amateur website NowThatsFuckedUp.com, was raided on charges of obscenity by a local Sheriff’s office.

“I think it’s crucial for us to stand up for consensual sadomasochism and other alternative sexual practices,” says Barbara Nitke, fetish photographer. “This is a battle worth fighting, and I hope everyone who can will just censor out the most provocative material from their websites, but keep them up. I also appeal to the lawyers in our community to help us find ways to keep people’s websites up.”

Barbara Nitke and the National Coalition for Sexual Freedom (NCSF) have proactively challenged federal obscenity laws as applied to the Internet, arguing that obscenity laws based on “local community standards” are too vague and their existence burdens protected speech, resulting in self-censorship due to the fear of prosecution. A district court three-judge panel in New York ruled that while Nitke and the NCSF members were at risk, more proof was needed that obscenity laws cause otherwise protected speech to be restrained through acts of self-censorship. The case is currently on appeal to the United States Supreme Court.

“The effect of silencing alternative lifestyle speech was exactly why we brought the lawsuit,” says attorney John Wirenius, lead counsel for NCSF. “The self-censorship we are seeing underscores the importance of supporting our ongoing obscenity challenge.”

To contribute to the appeal of the CDA lawsuit, go to:
www.ncsfreedom.org/donations.htm

National Coalition for Sexual Freedom – www.ncsfreedom.org
Barbara Nitke – www.barbaranitke.com

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A project of NCSF

The National Coalition for Sexual Freedom is a national organization committed to creating a political, legal, and social environment in the United States that advances equal rights of consenting adults who practice forms of alternative sexual expression. NCSF is primarily focused on the rights of consenting adults in the SM-leather-fetish, swing, and polyamory communities, who often face discrimination because of their sexual expression.

National Coalition for Sexual Freedom
822 Guilford Avenue, Box 127
Baltimore, MD 21202-3707
410-539-4824
[email protected]
www.ncsfreedom.org

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