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FYI Holly

Holly will be staying overnight again. She’s generally doing better and will probably be released tomorrow afternoon. She was fairly miserable a little bit ago (see “potassium”, below), but they’re doing what they can to keep her as comfortable as possible, and the staff there are very good. Except for the lady who brings breakfast. Her diabetes may come from her genes, as she was told that her form of diabetes was common to a specific Indian tribe.

The story, from the beginning, for those who don’t know:

Holly’s vision had been getting blurry and was getting worse for a few days. She also had some other common symptoms, such as dizziness. She brought up her glucose problems and i suggested maybe getting a monitor to test her blood sugar.

Early yesterday morning, after inching up to the TV to the point where she was nearly re-broadcast back to the station, she decided she’d had enough of feeling crappy so we went up to get a cheap blood-sugar monitor at Wal-Mart.

The first [successful] test was 448. A half hour later, the screen simply said “HI” – meaning that it was above 600. Normal blood sugar levels are more like 90 or so. We had trouble getting enough blood for further testing, because the machine was really finicky. Some degree of panic ensued, and we debated whether to wait for the Miami Valley Urgent Care to open, or go straight to the ER. (She no longer has insurance through her work, and we worried that the ER would not only be too expensive, but that she wouldn’t even be seen until after the Urgent Care was open anyway.) We called Optum’s Nurseline, which is provided by our employer, and was recommended to get to urgent care within 4-8 hours.

We waited for a couple of hours and she drank lots of water and rested as much as she could. We left early for Urgent Care. They couldn’t help us and directed us to go straight to the ER, ASAP.

After something like ten hours of poking and prodding and barely resting at all, she was finally admitted and she’s been getting better.

Today, her glucose was brought down to nearly normal, but it rose again later on, after being fed orange juice and a muffin for breakfast. Now she’s getting more potassium (that stuff apparently really hurts going in) and other unpronounceable things and we’ll have a better idea when she’s been monitored and stabilized a little more.

She probably won’t be taking injections of insulin for very long and will probably be on an oral drug to help keep her stable. She will need to eat low-carbohydrate, low-sugar foods from now on. So, if you’re going to be feeding her, fish would be a good idea. Non- sugar-free candy would not, and may get you a punch in the face courtesy of yours truly.

So that’s the story so far. She’s got a chronic disease but she’s getting better, and although she’ll be tied to drugs to keep her blood sugar stabilized, she’s going to be a lot better pretty soon.

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Diabetes

Holly’s doing better and will probably be home today [citation needed].

She’s got diabetes now, which means a fairly dramatic lifestyle change. It’s a chronic but manageable disease. Splenda is our new BFF.

I don’t know too much about the disease, but i’ll be learning a whole lot in the coming days. I’ll have to learn how to stab my girlfriend with a needle.

Thanks for the support, and extra thanks to Jeff for the zero-hour advice!

For more information on diabetes, check out:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diabetes

For information on stem-cell research and activism, check out – i’ve always been pretty die-hard about the value of this important but misunderstood research. Now that it hits closer to home, it’s an even more importanter cause. If someone you knew and loved (like, say, yourself!) had the opportunity to regrow defective tissue and be healthy and normal again, their quality of life could be far better. Be sure to write your representatives in Congress and remember this issue the next time it’s on the ballots. You can voice your concerns about the oppression of valuable scientific research NOW by going to the Working for Change website below.


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Diabetes

Holly now has diabetes. That’s not all. She’d been getting worse and worse over the last week, so she got the bright idea to get a blood sugar monitor. Thank holy living fucking hell, because the first reading (early this morning) was 448, while a half hour later it was off the meter (600 ).

Normal range is under ~100. The go-ahead-and-freak-out-now point is 250 .

She’s in hospital now, where she’ll be overnight, possibly two nights.

Poor sweet thing… she’s suffered so much. I thought i could handle this until that very thought crossed my mind driving home to pick up some stuff. I choked up a little on that.

She’ll be alright, though. She’s at a great hospital and they’re doing good with her and she’s slowly starting to feel better.

Three words: STEM CELL RESEARCH. Make it happen, Mr. Bush.

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Stapler Dance

Stapler Dance

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NORAD 9/11 tapes

Listen to these 9/11 tapes from NORAD’s NEAD base for chills. Read the whole story of how the effort to quell the 9/11 attacks was doomed from the beginning by faulty communications and a military that was sadly outmanned, overwhelmed, and ultimately outgunned. From Vanity Fair. Chilling, terrifying stuff. The candor, and humanity, on these tapes is stone-cold real.

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Speck

Well, at least he’s recycling…

  1. Dog eats Nylabone
  2. Dog shits Nylabone
  3. Dog eats shit-Nylabone
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Sleep-deprived

Our dog is obsessed with playing kissy-face with me (Queerest. Dog. EVAR!), and i cannot sleep a-cause of it. This crazy dog will make out with my face for stretches of time that are barely short of infinite. Blast!

He’s into bears, too. We’re certainly proud of our little gay son, but sometimes, it’s just a little disturbing.

Speck and Teddy-Bear

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Sunday

Holly and i had an excellent day Sunday. Got to see my wonderful Grandpa, my Dad & his wife, and my great friends Tony & Tasha! And i got to speak with my Uncle Kent and Tony’s brother Jeremy on the phone! Such a treat, such a treat. Plus, Tony & i got to have a little mini-adventure as we drove around looking for booze cigarettes! A terrific and fun day, spoiled only by a bit of a headache.

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Denying reality in Washington

Global warming is all in our minds. Also an apparent figment of our imagination: more than 100 people (so far) who have died as a direct cause of the current heat wave sweeping California.

While NASA has actually removed the phrase “to understand and protect our home planet” from its mission statement, an obvious sign that the idiotic monkey-hear, monkey-repeat global-warming deniers in Washington have them under their ridiculously fat thumbs, they’ve also been cutting or delaying programs intended to figure this climate change thing out.

So, has the politicization of science gone from merely hurting children by denying the obvious reality of evolution to actually killing people by denying the obvious reality of the global warming catastrophe?

So who’s on the side of citizenry, if our government wants to roll over and play stupid while we roast in the ever-increasing temperatures that are currently making our little planet a little less inhabitable each day? (Certainly not Republicans, who defiantly show their disgust with the poor by continually voting not to increase the minimum wage, all the while voting to give themselves raises and give tax cuts to the poor rich people in this country.)

What’s the real deal here, then? Is the U.S. government trying to enslave its own people by creating an environment where we have no recourse or protection from calamity without paying? Has America finally been turned over to Big Business? Where has all this incredible ignorance come from, and why is it actively trying to take us back to the Dark Ages, when common people were literally at the mercy of all-powerful tyrants? And how is it that We, the People, are actually letting this happen to us?

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My favorite gadgets

Gadgets that seemingly transport me weeks into the future:

  • SanDisk Sansa e140
    • Now i am never without my first true love – music. 1 Gigabyte will easily store 15 albums’ worth of good-quality mp3s. Expandable with an SD card. And an FM tuner for when you’re standing right next to a radio tower and want to nearly discern what’s being broadcast.
  • various LED flashlights
    • I will use these things at the drop of a hat – even in direct freakin’ sunlight. And i have yet to change the batteries after months of constant use. Very bright.
  • Samsung LCD monitor
    • Flat, sleek, crystal clear, colorful, nearly weightless, and relatively microscopic footprint. Very sexy.
  • Acu-Rite weather monitor w/ remote sensor
    • I only say “what’s it like outside?” out of pure habit. I don’t really mean it, though. I can know at a mere glance. Makes one feel meteorologically omnipotent.
  • Yamaha tuner/metronome
    • Always in tune, always in time. Theoretically, anyway.
  • Mad Catz wireless controller for PS2
    • Now if only my PS2’s fuse wasn’t going bad, i could play without that stupid big thick stiff cable always knocking shit over.
  • Digitech Distortion Factory
    • I can dial in any tone, from warm overdrive to jangly crunch to thick meaty distortion to scooped out slog-metal. Rawk.
  • Laser pointer
    • Don’t knock this relatively old-school tech – it’s the best dog toy ever created! No crazy squeaking to annoy you during the late-night movie sessions, and it won’t make your pooch morbidly obese.
  • Logitech wireless optical mouse
    • Overlooking the battery drainage, the fact that it won’t get in your way, stays smooth as silk, and never needs cleaning makes this damn thing a killer piece of tech.
  • various small desktop-style speakers
    • I seem to have pairs of these things all over the freaking apartment for TV/DVD/PS2, boomboxes, PC, etc. Although i’m not yet 5.1, i’m never without rich, stereo sound, and they never get in the way. Even the wires are easily hidden under small rugs.
  • rechargeable batteries
    • I never lack power or mobility. Not for several hours at least. Then, i transform back into my regular, mild-mannered, powerless and immobile self. But only until i recharge a few more cells!
  • Phillips automatic A/V selector
    • Doesn’t matter what device i turn on, the TV will show me what i want to see most. Well, within reason. I’m still waiting to see a semi-intelligent, at least partially-evolved creature take back control of the most powerful nation on Earth. And 24/7 boobies. In that precise order.
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cool art

Here are some extremely lifelike sculptures of gargantuan and tiny humans.

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a code beyond DNA

Like a nicely trippy LSD-influenced fractal blacklight poster circa 1996, the Essential Pattern becomes more and more complicated the deeper you look into it.

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link apeshit

National Film Board of Canada: 50 animated shorts – excellent stuff!

Dr. Miracles – short film. Completely juvenile, and hilarious. ER gone badly weird.

This Flash “mind reader” seems spooky at first – until you figure out how it works (but do try it first, following the site’s instructions): Notice that the symbols repeat. Also notice how one number may have different symbols when you repeat the process. Then, notice that you can’t just pick a symbol, you HAVE to do the math. NOW… try this: Do the math for 5 different numbers. Do you see a pattern? They’ll all be the same symbol! So no matter what number you pick, if you do the math and pick the correct symbol, it will ALWAYS be right!

Bizarre fish with human-like teeth caught in Texas lake. (Not just human… British.)

Speaking of which… catfish, um, really get this big?!

Bandai’s hilariously weird “God-Jesus” robot toy from the 1980s.

Experiments in the Revival of Dead Organisms. Fucking creepy. Found via Grey Lodge Podcasting Company’s YouTube link dump.

Mazen Kerboj, musician and artist, blogs from ground zero in Lebanon. Check out his improv piece, Starry Night, during which you can hear bombs and air $raid$ sirens in the background. Beautiful and unsettling, all at once. Read his blog and pass it along. Chilling. I hope that he stays safe. He seems like a good man. He says things like:

“we know you are with us. we know you are seeing us. we know you hear the fucking bombs we are hearing. we know you worry for us. but don’t. because you know we are tough guys. you know that we’ll [survive?] this shit. you know that we survived massacre and we’ll do it again today. you know we’ll see each other soon. keep in touch and stay with us.”

People get ready: all this Middle East violence is giving the End-Timers a serious hard-on for the Rapture. A sicker bunch of fuckwits probably do not exist. Zealots are fools. It is religious zeal that has got the world into the mess that it’s in now. How do you spell worldwide suicide? Z-E-A-L-O-T-R-Y.

Zealots of the world: fuck you. I do hope that you all die the vainglorious deaths that you ridiculous, ignorant fools are all hoping for. So GO APESHIT FOR JESUS/MOSES/MUHAMMED! Kill each other to bloody, pulpy fucking smithereens and let the rest of us get on with our futures!

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Flickr stream: photos from arabist

Lookit what hatred can do (photos from arabist of the Israel-Lebanon conflict)

Warning: some extremely graphic images of victims of Israeli war violence in Lebanon.

It’s too bad that the assholes in Hezbollah have to literally ruin the lives of Lebanese civilians by incurring the extreme wrath of Israel (who, let’s face it, pulled the trigger in the terrible images linked to above). I’ve always had a great fondness for the Lebanese. I had a childhood friend who (if i remember right) was Lebanese (he didn’t speak a word of English but we had fun, i hope), and who couldn’t love the country that gave us the late, great Khalil Gibran.

Extreme bad behavior never benefits anyone, whether coming from aggressors or defenders. Violence is violence. If this is how we solve our differences, then the human race truly is doomed to extinction, and godspeed.

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Independent infographic pretty much says it all

The Independent (UK)

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the ever-downward spiral

complete social paralysis… too much work, not enough free time… tired of long, late hours… inability to call it quits in City of No Jobs… stuck in a rut, working that hamster-wheel, endlessly, endlessly… no let-up… need to create stifled by need to pay bills… reality sets in… all my potential wasted… drained, powerless… weakening… my resolve is a sinking ship… overwhelmed by commitment to carry on somehow… need to let go, let it all go… whatever happened to the Dream? …it’s too late to turn back now, my next 35 years will be similarly wasted in either swimming back to the starting shore, or swimming to the other side, where awaits, what?, a long walk back to the starting point to do it all over again… or, just drown in the middle… not the right time to take a risk, to gamble on what has always, always proven to be miserable failure in the past…

my job is crushing my soul and sapping my will to live. and it doesn’t get any better in this awful city i used to love.

i need enough time and money to go back to college so i can somehow manage to get out of this rut with enough time and money to go back to college so i can somehow manage to get out of this rut with enough time and money to go back to college so i can somehow manage to get out of this rut…

i could create my way to freedom, if only i had the freedom to create.

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ok, ok, an update

It’s been while, i know. I’ve been a little under the weather, first with a scratchy, burning sore throat and chest cold… now with golf-ball-in-the-neck sore throat. So anyway, here’s some of the weirder or cooler links i’ve found recently.

A [hilarious] Polyamory-English phrase dictionary – having dated a polyamorous girl for 2 years before it all crashed and burned, i found this quite funny. It’s from a polyamorous dominatrix, so you can laugh without guilt.

Unheard.org – indie/community radio. Some cool shows.

George W. Bush sings Sunday Bloody Sunday, b/w David Hasselhoff lampooning self in “Jump in My Car”

Brand new Atari 2600 game released. It’s hard to believe what we once considered highly entertaining gaming. But we did, and it’s still great fun.

Top 10 Unintentionally Worst Company Domains – what were they thinking?!

On my suggestion, American Liberty Forum moves to WordPress.com – an improvement which cannot be overstated. A lot less unwelcoming. Still, i hate to take issue with friends, but sometimes people are just wrong.

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American Liberty Forum

My great, old friend Jason Styer, who is as intelligent as they come (when he’s not wagging his tongue at Adam’s-appled hysterical right-wing frothing-at-the-mouth lunatic Ann Coulter, or at least e-mailing me her latest moronic seething diatribe), has started a new blog, the American Liberty Forum American Liberty Forum. Unfortunately, it’s on an ultraconservative network, which saddens me, as he’s an otherwise decent human being – the one just doesn’t seem to fit on the other. (Also: since i had to register to comment there, i sincerely hope i’m not entered into any goddamn idiotic Republican action-network mailing lists. You bet i used a fake street address -why that would be required on an internet forum is beyond me anyway.)


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Got my rejection e-mail from the creative staffing agency.

I turn 35 in just a couple more months. Thirty. Five. Three-and-a-half decades – of agony, of wanting to be something i will never be.

Do you know that i actually take orders from prissy little rich-girls for a living? 18-year-old “I’m special” daddy’s-little-princesses who believe truly that they are better than me? Who probably are better than me? Most of whom will probably go on to enjoy more success for every single year of their thoughtless lives than i will for the duration of my own?

I’m a miserable failure.

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my “career” is officially never going to get off the ground.

FUCKNESS!!!

First great job lead i’ve had in, well, FOREVER… and their site blowed up on me!! I cannot save my profile no matter what i try! (yes, i tried signing out and back in, with worse results).

i am forever doomed to be a member of the servant caste.

Fuckity fuckfuck.