Author: jae

i love my buddy flooding!!

your gerbil needs a journal, though, dear.

some days i just can’t forget about how i watched my very own Grandmother, that sweet and tender harlequin who raised me since infancy, die right in front of my own two eyes. on days like these, you just can’t understand how badly i really need a fucking seriously sturdy drink.

one of the best posts ever to grace the pages of LiveJournal.
(re: multidimensional [“hyper”]space)

it probably doesn’t get said nearly enough as it should: thee_kaos_child rocks hardcore.

holy CRAP! i got turned on to not one, but TWO awesome communities in one sitting!!

now i just got to find the willpower to start reading my communities filter again. as it is now, i *ONLY* read mutually-linked humans.

jesus. i hate this! with my shirt on, i look like Gilligan, but with my shirt off, i still look like the Skipper.

maybe i should build a treadmill out of all these palm fronds, bamboo sticks, and coconuts lying around here.

am dork. listen:

this morning, while watching PBS (at least 95% of my TV time – maybe 3-5 hours a week – is spent watching puhlic telebision), i saw a promo for a NOVA special on superstring theory.

i pumped my fists in the air and whisper-shouted “YES!”

holy CRAP!! i gotta start listening to the radio again!!

the new local “classic rock” station, which happens to actually be classic rock instead of “ClearChannel™ almost modern corporate rock,” actually has the BALLS to play MARVIN FUCKING GAYE!!!

“What’s Goin’ On” even!!

BONUS!!

ooooookay. since when does MySQL 4.0.12 not like comments in SQL files??

also, i’m really a little tired of the notion that

women = CEO of Sex, Inc.
men = machine operators/cash distributors/general maintenance engineers

, or

women = sexy little buggers
men = generally useful

.

, i mean – can we get back to basics again here or what? back to when these roles/images weren’t so set into stone? or do these stereotypes really rule the universe? if so, am moving out.

my suggestion for a new state motto:

i want a GLBT sandwich.

faith in “god” = insanity.

wow. just woke up and smoked a cigarette. serious head buzz going. could really use some Jolt.

client told me the other day he couldn’t get the site running, on the server i sent him, on the laptop, at the meeting. he had it going before. oh well. now he wants a calendar, and he sent me a Word doc with screenshots of the one he wanted me to make. it took less than one minute to find it on the internet (i am a Google master). the company that makes it sells it for literally hundreds and hundreds of dollars… i think even more than $1000! i told him he wasn’t going to get anything of the sort, but did some scouring and have narrowed it down to a few pretty decent-looking open-source products. tweaking and testing them this weekend.

if anyone ever needs to find me on the web, you know what to do.

…and on the subject of love:

i love Star, and i hope she doesn’t mind.

i also love!:
666queen
_hellion
afrodite79
aimercat
alien010
astralweeks
astrokaiju
barboy74 (love you Ed!!)
divineseduction
diziara
dragonsfancy
flooding (wherever you are)
forestnymph
george_ums
giselc
graspingbeauty
kaitan
left_breathless
love_no_evil
luminosity
lunarchk
metaphorge
mingocounty
mistressxenobia
mjb
multifacetsflux
mycrazymind
mymetamorphose
nestingsoul
noisetranquille
nostradomnatrix
notinphenomena
pplarestrange
pserv
puddingbunnie
saturnalia22
seanp
secretlanguage
slbass
sylensio
taocub
thatdirtyblonde
theapostate
thee_kaos_child
theredheaddiva
tyrsalvia
wirklichkeit
wolfieboy
Melissa
Cassandra
Tony & Jeremy D. et la famille
Travis & Eirit
Krista & Gavin
Fred & Lisa
Tasha
Jason & Krissy
Trish
Jessie & Mike
Jaime/DJ Tigris
Ria
Monica
Greg & Maggie
Mark
Phayboune
Esper, Shawn, Sean, Brian, the Jennifers & the gang back at P-tel
Tami!
The Red Hot Chili Peppers
The Beatles
my family
food
sex
life
death
laughter
sorrow
pleasure
pain
…and all the rest of the whole world (including animals), even those prick bastards in the G.O.P.

• slightly expressed introvert
• moderately expressed intuitive personality
• moderately expressed feeling personality
• moderately expressed perceiving personality

meh. i didn’t like this one. the questions were far too vague, and the answers too strict. and bad spelling/grammar didn’t get me off.

the problem with tests like these is that they leave no room whatsoever for my REAL type: dualistic extremist. i’m a rather extreme introvert AND extrovert, see? et cetera, in fact.

Conscious self	Overall self

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Enneagram Test Results

Your main personality is Type 4w5	Your mean personality is Type 5w6

Your main type is the Enneagram type behavior that is most pronounced in you, which for you is Type 4w5. Your mean type, Type 5w6,
is who you are, on average, based on the sum influence of all nine type
behaviors. Your mean type is a better predictor of how you generally
act whereas your main type reflects how you prefer to act. By analogy,
if you were a bus with nine different possible drivers, your main type
is the most frequently used driver (which suggests you prefer that
behavior/driver) but your mean type represents the sum influence of all
nine drivers. Another way to look at it is that your mean type
reflects where you are overall in the evolutionary race and your main
type reflects the direction you are most often choosing to move in (if
it’s higher than your mean type you are moving forward, otherwise you
are moving backward or nowhere). Most Enneagram books and tests focus
on main type and use an additional “variant” classification to account
for the influence of the other eight behavior types (drivers). Based
on your test results your variant is Social. So when reading other Enneagram books or websites refer to the Type 4w5, Social variant descriptions.

Everyone utilizes all nine behaviors to some degree, but some overly
favor less useful behaviors. The upper behaviors (4,5,6) reflect
moving forward (5 behavior is the most progress conducive), the middle
behaviors (3 and 7) reflect minimal progress or staying the same, and
the lower behaviors reflect going backwards (clinging to the past).
People stuck more often on statis quo (3 and 7) and backward behaviors
(2, 1, 9, 8) will develop less in life, then again to be too
progressive all the time (4,5,6) can burn you out physically (so if you
have a really high Vmean be attentive to physical burn out). You
can’t usually master higher behaviors without first resolving excessive
attachments or deficiencies to lower type behaviors. If you have
absolutely no sense of organization (type 1), you are unlikely to
succeed at anything. On the other hand if you are obsessed with
organization, you won’t accomplish much either.

So examine all behaviors and ask if you have issues related
to them (in the form of bias or weakness). Try to figure out methods
of getting past those fixations. Biographies are a great way to widen
your personality spectrum and assimilate the lessons of other people’s
experiences. Remember, our thoughts are what have taken us from stone
age cave people to abstract thinking creative beings, so listen to your
feelings but always be guided by your mind and what makes sense. The
scientific method (learn/observe, theorize, experiment, analyze
results, modify – repeat cycle) is the spine of human evolution and
becoming more fivish means applying that system to your own life.

i haven’t even read it yet.

Farm Sluts – 17 min | 49 mb (320 x 172)

Chris Parnell RULES.

when it comes to relationships, love, all that mushy crap, i have an opinion. it’s based on my observations, filtered through my perception, and combined with my instincts and feelings. i think that the solution i have provided for you here (free of charge, as always) will not only make your life better, but it will make the lives of those around you better as well. in fact, it will solve not only problems of the heart, but problems of any sort whatsoever. and on any scale; global, even… if you want it.

the problem: we are so jaded. we are so cynical. as a nation, as a society, as a civilization, and even as a whole world. we don’t trust each other; we are bitter about our past experiences, even though the “past” is a human-made concept that is impossible to prove even exists. as a result, we approach social situations with trepidation and hesitancy, even reluctance. we often question whether or not we even believe in “true love,” even though such a thing is entirely based on our own efforts and ability to cooperate and harmonize ourselves to others. thus, we hold ourselves back from what we most desire, simply because we are selfish and want to protect our own emotional state, even at cost. we seek to seperate love into ill-defined categories.

the problem with the problem: love is love. there are no differences in the “types” of love that people try in vain to define. there are only additives. for example, you love your brother, but you wouldn’t have sex with him (hopefully)… that still means that you love him. love and sex/romance are not the same thing! they make an excellent combo, of course. i propose that we begin to see/”define” our relationships as 1) loving; 2) loving, with sex; and 3) loving, with romance. (if i missed any appropriate side dishes, add it in yourself.) …in addition, when you allow yourself to feel love, you allow the world to love you just as much back, and you allow yourself to be loving to your self. there is no such thing as “false” love; ALL love is real. if you think you love someone, then you do – end of story. no ifs, ands, or buts.

the solution: tell whoever you’re with that you love them. that’s right – just say it… but don’t just say it, mean it. put yourself into it. just do it! when you allow yourself to release all that bottled up love, you will find you have released your tensions and inner conflicts as well. and do it publicly… i want to see my friends page LITTERED with a buncha damn mushy sweetie-pie crap and nonsense. don’t just write it on LiveJournal, say it aloud to your partner, and to everyone you know. say it to complete strangers. don’t be shy. you’re not putting anything on the line – you’re just letting people know how you feel, that’s all. it’s easy!

nostradomnatrix adds this!:
Don’t just tell them that you love them. SHOW THEM. Every chance you get.

Could be just a stupid post-it left on their car. Could just be a stupid chotchke purchased at a flea market.

Let them know that you love them in all the ways you can.

think i’ve done this before. i wonder if anything’s changed?

Personality Disorder Test – Take It!

another small victory. put my blog on the main page at transmothra.com. incidentally, it’s syndicated via here or here.

watched an awesome episode of American Masters tonight on PBS. twice. i love Joni Mitchell. she’s just so damned smart, and talented, and original. and i either didn’t know, or forgot, that Jaco Pastorius played that fluid bass on Hejira! no wonder it’s my favorite album of hers.

i’m having a contest with “Bob” to see who can de-beak the most prairie-squid between now and X-Day.