1) UTILITIES– finally ran across one of my old favorite proggies, the renamed (and awkwardly so, i might add) 2D & 3D Animator by PY Software. looking forward to seeing what the new version can do. i used to use it for a lot of banners and goofy little graphics on the old GeoShitties site.
2) FILM– David Mamet is a genius. (so is his brilliant wife Rebecca Pidgeon.) finally saw The Spanish Prisoner today. (amazing, especially if you like other incredible brain-twisters like The Game, House of Games, and The Usual Suspects) by coincidence, i had also rented State and Main.
3) RACE– also by coincidence, i’d gotten into a thread at HTMLForums re: race (whole thread totally OT but almost interesting) last night, and then later on PBS watched a show called “Journey of Man“, about the migration of humankind from our ancient home in Africa to the rest of the globe (a really very fascinating and utterly enlightening program, even if you think you know a lot about the Ancients), a point which i made (“we are ALL Africans!”) but was largely ignored until somebody restated it today. synchronicity has always been close at hand with me.
4) BRAIN– they say that smart people are generally crazy, unstable, and antisocial. i think i may be smart. not very, but enough. today i spent two hours at the local Barnes & Noble avoiding, after having been initially drawn there like a magnet, or more like a moth to a fire, the philosophy section… instead i browsed through vast tomes of Hawking, Sagan, Sherman Alexie, Rexroth, Campbell, plus assorted giant books on web programming (it’s high time i get myself into xhtml and xml)… and then, just before leaving, and like a helpless neurotic, picked up two big general books from the philosophy section (Fifty Key Contemporary Thinkers: From Structuralism to Postmodernity, and Will Durant’s book — i would have gotten some Alan Watts, for chrissakes, but they NEVER carry him for some reason!) and was on my way home.
5) SOUL– but i can’t read anymore! i’m serious! the best works of my favorite authors lay untouched on my shelf! i even have the latest manuscript for Jackie Corley‘s tragicomically brilliant Foster, waiting for red ink. but i can’t read.
¶ i wonder why… perhaps i am simply much too restless. i know i have been lately. i can’t touch HTML, either, even though i may have cost myself a couple of gigs recently. nothing i do is what i want to be doing. it’s all in vain! i need a religious experience or something. but here i sit, atop the mountain, doggedly agnostic because all i know for CERTAIN is that i know nothing whatsoever for sure. and still i cry out for a god to save me from It’s Creation. lot of empty echoes up that high. and no matter what you ask, all you get back is the same question you just posed. no answers, no answers. …maybe the answers lie in which questions one asks.
