finally got some more work done. got the blogger archives working, and also uploaded some essays. checked out uJournal and deadjournal today; may start using them as i feel i need to gain distance from lisa, a girl that i dearly love, who i am more compatible with than anyone else in the world, and who i am not compatible with (for almost purely sexually political reasons, and also that she had been a real asshole to me in the last coupla weeks). she has a livejournal, so i feel like maybe i should switch away from all of that. also, am drinking again. …and feeling like i want some speed, something i haven’t really done since 1992 (low-grade, OTC ephedrine, mind you, not meth or anything that radical).