Yesterday we threw my grandmother a birthday party. Her birthday’s the 20th. i just wanted her to have one last special day, and to help her have closure (us too, i guess). We’ve all said our bittersweet goodbyes at this point, including me.
Today her breathing was labored, and she was making a wheezing moaning with every breath. This went on intermittently all day long, until a few hours ago. Since then, we’ve had nurses and other professionals come out. She’s on oxygen. The unanimous concensus is that she may well pass away tonight. i will be on vigil round the clock over her until she does. God, she’s so brave and so strong.
i love my grandma. i really love my grandma. She raised me. i’m going back into her room after a cigarette and a cry; otherwise, i’d tell you exactly how wonderful she is. For now, you’ll just have to trust me on this.
