i can’t sleep. i’m still all wound up. not negatively. i’m just awaiting news, which my body doesn’t seem to be able to fucking realize may take weeks or even months to arrive. sleep, damn you, sleep!
so i’m reading Harry Potter (1st book). and goddammit, i like the darned thing. it’s really fucking good stuff! the only thing wrong with Harry Potter is the Potter-heads. they’re always going on and on and on, about Harry Potter this, and Grumblebuck the Enchanted Monkey (or what-have-you) that. mind, i actually secretly enjoy it when my dear friend and partner goes on and on about it; she gets so excited, and that makes me smile all over and inside, and it’s just wonderful to see and hear her talk about anything she loves, with that ultra-charming girlish zeal of hers. but it can be awfully annoying sometimes how popular a thing (any thing) gets, because people always go apeshit over things, which is exactly why Star Trek actually went to hell (but i digress).
and speaking of books + her, i’ve been meaning to get around to reading Thomas Merton for ages now; and since she’s been talking about him again recently, i’ve decided that the next chance i get (when i get a few quid in my pocket and find myself in The Right Part of Town, that is), i’m going to take the plunge and read New Seeds of Contemplation (or, hell, whatever else i find by him).
ok, christ, i can’t help it… let me just quickly vocalize it yet again: she’s so amazing and thoughtful and intelligent and the fact that Merton changed her life a couple years ago while she was being a vagabond hipster in China has always really intrigued me, and made me realize just what an incredible and vibrant and unique and fascinating personality she has… so any book or film or anything that’s touched her so profoundly i’ve just got to check into, because she’s really a remarkable human being, and i at least want to be just half as Aware, too.
and speaking of books in general, i’d like to recommend the following:
Joseph Campbell- Myths to Live By
Gary Zukav- The Dancing Wu Li Masters (physics as zen)
Erich Fromm- The Art of Being
William James- The Varieties of Religious Experience
Denton Welch- In Youth is Pleasure (fiction)
Jean-Paul Sartre- Le Nausée (seminal existentialist fiction)
Lewis Thomas- The Lives of a Cell
Jean Cocteau (attrib.)- Le Livre Blanc
