earlier today, Matty chewed clean through the cord on my Sony headphones. the best pair i have. i know i can just splice them, but geez. just one more spliced wire and my whole life will be one big rough edit.
i just spent five minutes trying to convince a spider out in the garage that a nearby worm would make for a tasty treat. it didn’t listen to me, so i burned out its eyes with a laser pointer. survival of the fittest.
i am probably going to be questioning my validity as an artist, so will be devoting more time to physical visual art. dammit, all through K-12 i was the Class Artist, and now look at me. i haven’t got shit to show for myself except for a few mediocre paintings that are mostly years and years old. expect more self-loathing and general bitchiness.
pain in chest back. lack of sleep lately (actually, plenty of sleep but cannot get to it in good time), because of multiple possible apneatic startled wakings-up upon nearing threshold. dammit, i don’t care if it just stops, or keeps on beating; but i can’t live like this, all in-between at night.
gout giving me longsharp painful spikethrob problems. been raining. (v. long, v. loud earthshaking thunder strike earlier tonight, during otherwise mediocre storm.) down to just 2 Orudis KT (it takes 3 to have noticeably take the edge off the usually debilitating pain (often causes heart palpitation) – which i am paranoid others may think is all in my head, which is untrue. my life is a bitch.
prediction: i will saying nothing of any import for many days on end.
and where’s george_ums? and sylensio?
need to fix car, find better work, buy fairly serious digital multitrack (too many songs passing by on the wind), and fix intonation on red frankenstein guitar.
also need Robotech, Cosmos, Eraserhead DVDs. badly.
hackers STILL trying to use nonexistent formmail in my empty cgi-bin to send spam. i set up a little harmless surprise for them.
rains are back, along with thunder.
going to bed.
