just occurred to me to wonder
1) why nobody responded to my last mass email re: my new (as of January) site redesign (esp. since i so rarely ever do mass emails anymore, and most of the recipients haven’t heard from my ass in ages),
and
2) why none of the x-mas packages i sent seems to have reached their destinations (!!!??!!?!).
it’s not like i really need validation (per se) so much, i’m just starting to wonder (literally) if i truly exist? it’s like if a tree falls in the forest, and nobody’s there to observe it…
the weirdest thing is that i get more response from people i don’t even know at all. mind you, people i WANT to know, very much in fact (talking ’bout all of you on my friends list, etc., who i don’t know in real life). but still. anyone who knows me has just pretty much given up. i wonder what exactly that indicates? i could take The Easy Way Out™ and just assume that i’m a loser who shows his ass worst in reality, but shit! i show my ass here more than i do in real life! i dunno.
also, i wanna apologize (yet again!), because i’ve been neglecting commenting in YOUR journal. i don’t even reply in mine anymore these days. i don’t know why. i guess i’m just tired of the whole internet experience, or something. anyway, i love all you crazy, beautiful freaks, just so you know.
