cool, Ria (my old friend in STL who i used to date and who took me across Europe with her, sweet girl) just called me. she sounded very positive about my visit and as it turns out, she’ll be off from work pretty much the entire time i’m there! i have a good feeling about this visit. the last time we met we weren’t speaking, if you get my meaning. but things have cleared up so wonderfully since then and the vibes are so sweet and fresh and good. my only real worry is that old feelings might creep up in me again, which wouldn’t be so bad i guess but i’m sure she wouldn’t have it. damn, come to think of it, i’d marry that woman in a heartbeat if she’d let me. (the thought of marriage disgusts me normally.) shit, it’s like Paris all over again: gotta keep myself in check, but we see where that went to last time. i’m sure everything’ll be okay. or will it? i mean, should i… ah, me… i must wait and see. oh, i’ll be groovy and stuff, won’t even make any mention of any possibilities if (when) it doesn’t look like it, but god DAMN it’s a real thrill to get to see her again, after 5.5 years (hail Eris indeed!)….

oh, Ria… you were such a heartbreak for me… but i’m so much better now, and at least you weren’t cruel and spiteful like Lisa was… (in fact you were very sweet and gentle and kind) …and i’m so happy to be able to see you again!!!

il est été beaucoup trop longtemps, mon ami de doux coeur…