so when last i was here…
Saturday: broke it off with Lisa :(
Sunday: get a message to “show up at [her] door tomorrow (today), and we’ll see what happens”
Monday: got my ass to Valpo with a severe quickness! i’m a sucker for great women. so we hung out the first day, and while on our first walk together, she suddenly stops and we sit down against a tree. she puts her head on my shoulder (awww), and we talk about things. i ended up deciding that i will endure her polyamorous urges for her, even though i really still have a hard time dealing with it.
rest of week: had tons of fun… went to Lake Michigan and jumped in with our clothes (mostly) on. my head’s still swirling from the sheer joy of it all, so i cannot relate the exact chronology at this moment… but we kissed, held hands, hugged, and generally shared a lot of sweetness and affection. (p.s., aside from being an insanely smart, funny, and multitalented person, she’s also a true knockout with an oversized heart… *gush* i love this gurl!)
we didn’t have sex or anything, so don’t even ask. naughty, naughty livejournallers! bendt ovah fohr zie schpankenennnnnn!
i did, however, get to sleep at her side the first two nights *siiiiigh* :). after that, i felt all guilty for taking up space and stuff and i sooooo didn’t want to bother her roommate Moni (who’s really cool, btw- but is taking some heavy, heavy courses), so i rented a motel room for about $40/night. which of course drained the bulk of my spending ca$h, but oh well.
man, things worked out pretty well i think, except that i’m always a little on the shy side at first (before i turn into a lil’ monster anyway), and i did fuck up one night by letting myself down and affecting others because of it, but she showed me the light and brought me back to reality. so i didn’t overall come off very confidently, i don’t think. she doesn’t know that i used up my confidence points already in another arena though. and anyway, i hate acting like a cocky bastard the first time i meet someone. i’ll turn Him loose later, heh. (but jayzuss goddamn christ, the wounded puppy-dog approach needs to GO. wtf is rong wif me??!)
but anyway… so yeah, she’s a fuckin phe*NOM*enal kisser… at one point, we literally couldn’t pull ourselves away from each other. *sigh* that was fun ;)
only a coupla things i was sort of disappointed in: the last night, i was TRYing to give her one of my “special” massages (which is supPOSED to be pretty erotic, heh), but i fucked it all up because my damn knees hurt on the hard linoleum floor and i couldn’t really bend like i wanted to because of it. that, and the fact that my overall presentation was sometimes kinda lame. and there was a gift i really really wanted to give her on thursday morning, but dammit, the opportunity wasn’t there for a few different stoopid reasons. eh, maybe i can mail it to her.
Friday: i had to leave (yeah, hated it; i was bawling in the car the whole way home – god damn i love that gurl) her boyfriend was supposed to come over, and she says she’s going to tell him about us and see what happens. i hope it goes well. i mean, i don’t want to compete or anything, but she refuses to make a choice between us (which is almost really unfair for the both of us guys, all things considered, but “she’s worth it” is what i keep telling myself). so either he and i both play along with HER rules, or one or both of us has to drop out… not looking too good for ANY of us.
but she’s my best friend, and i know that i want to be there for a very long time… *twisty-tummy sigh* no matter what happens, i guess…
