so we talked tonight, and it’s over. for once in my life, at least a somewhat dignified and civil end to something.
and yet, i have a nagging feeling that it’s not really over. i don’t know why. i hope i don’t do something foolish like go running back to her (exactly what i want to do). at least i didn’t beg. i just can’t live like i have been. i need a real relationship in a real domain, and i need to have just a little bit of commitment. just enough to get by on, that’s all.
damn it, we were such a good match, too. it could have been perfect.
i’m going to go and drain my eyes now.
